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Saturday, December 25, 2010

WOOT!

One of the day's best Christmas presents? ETS called and I PASSED the GRE Literature Subject Test. It is a HUGE relief to me. The test was a pretty constant stress and test of my intellectual identity this year - nothing has ever made me feel more aggravated or stupid (except maybe college stats).

One step closer to that PHD - and that is a really good feeling.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Snow Angel

Is she seriously too cute or what?
Really, I love this little person, so much more than I could ever have comprehended I would. Sometimes I still find myself at a loss of words to describe how I feel about my child. I type the words "my" but she is becoming more and more her own each day. She may be the bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh, but it is truly a privlege to be in her presence, to soak up the little life that she shares with us.
I beleive a lot of things. And one of them is that we all hold a unique and intelligent spirit inside the walls of these physcial bodies. I beleive those spirits have been before and will always be. I beleive in an eternal and physical progression of things. I hold my baby in my arms, and feel more like I am not really holding anything that is "mine," rather that I have the privlege of enoying a short-lived stewardship over, and an intimate and forever connection to another human spirit.
And it is fascinating to watch that little spirit unfold into a personality all her own. Sometimes I sit and stare at her and wonder who she will be, what things she will like, what she will do. I consider the thrills and the heartaches that wait for her and hope that she never forgets her worth.
Because it is so great. For me, she is a manifestation of so many things. And I wish I could tell her someday, make her understand somehow what and who she is to me, to her father, to herself and to the world.